Bella Dyosa

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Gotta start somewhere, right?

Ever since I decided to take that one step out of my comfort zone–without any guaranteed security or stability down the line–I’ve been in limbo.

This weird in-between place with a looooooong ass transitional bridge where I’m able to look back at my old life and at the same time, see where I’m destined to be.

Initially, after leaving the PR agency, I was starry-eyed and filled with light, of endless possibilities. My first novel was published and I was getting the much needed and well-deserved break from a fast-paced industry.

Where was life going to take me next? Was I finally going to get the big break I was secretly hoping for? How do I build my desired reality from here on out?

While mentally screaming at the top of my lungs, “Fuck the corporate grind! To hell with the ‘hustle ’til you drop dead’ mindset!! It’s the bane of my existence!!!“

I clearly still feel this way (less angry, more firm). But capitalism truly has a way of waking you up to some realities of life.

Like the bills upon bills you have to pay monthly. The exhausting process of job hunting, ESPECIALLY if you know what you want and what you deserve, plus set clear boundaries.

Then, there’s a subtle ingrained pressure that creeps in. Of reverting to the traditional path of obtaining the staple (and stable) job, finding the one and getting married, and eventually having the cute lil’ kids.

Not that there’s anything wrong with this lifestyle. We each have our journeys and preferences. This path, however, doesn’t resonate with me. Well, at least, half of it.

One of the many realizations I’ve had in my journey is that freedom and independence are highly important to me.

Having experienced both the office grind and the flexible remote work, I realized what I truly crave isn’t just “work-life balance”–it’s liberation. I no longer dream of labor. I want to be free to build a life, a brand, and an empire rooted in softness, sacredness, and sovereignty. Where passion and purpose flow together.

I want to be independent to make a living from any and every corner of the globe. I want to be free to see the world because of my brand and empire. Where pleasure and prosperity breathe in harmony.

I’ve always believed that the entire world is my home. I may have my favorites, but this crazy weird planet is home.

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I want to be independent to buy both what I want and need without looking at the price tag. I’m not even talking about the cream of the crop type of rich. Financial stability and well-deserved wealth is where it’s at.

I want to be free to meet like-minded people from all backgrounds with their unique stories to tell. To be inspired by their light and their path, just as I do for them.

I want to be free and independent to finally to welcome the romantic divine love I’ve longed for with ease and peace.

Above all else, I want to be free for myself. That’s just the way it has to be. And I will never dare settle for anything less.

So, we’ve covered getting clear and knowing what I desire. What’s next?

Action steps. Concrete plans of action that will take me one step closer to the life of my dreams.

A vivid vision and burst of inspiration alone isn’t going to take me there. It most certainly helps and gives me a boost of drive and motivation.

But let’s face it, just because I suddenly want to host and crave to feast on the best and biggest brunch I could ever imagine, doesn’t mean it will magically appear in front of me.

Also, I want to cook that shit with my own hands. Another fun part of the experience!

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The point is that for my dreams to happen, for me to manifest the life I desire and oh so truly deserve, I have to put in the work.

Yes, there’s the external work to achieving our goals. However, what people and society tend to forget is the internal work. The self.

Self-love, self-care, self-esteem, you name it. News flash (in case you haven’t heard already): inner self-work is Important with a capital I. A vital part of our journey. It’s both as simple and as complicated as that.

I’ll be honest, it has not been easy. Some days it is, and some days it’s tough and challenging to the point where I feel like disappearing from the face of the earth.

But whenever I take a moment to reflect and look back on how far I’ve come and the many amazing possibilities ahead of me, I realize that it’s worth it.

Why? Because you get to drop in on yourself, really know who you are at your core, your raw soul. You face the light and the shadow of your being. You dig deep into what your truth is and learn how to truly nourish yourself, heal yourself.

You step into an empowered version of yourself and think, “Damn, some of y’all ugly bitches ain’t worth my time or energy, so get the fuck out my life.“

And all it takes is that one step. To ultimately put yourself first in the name of radical kindness and self-love. Because as we all know, there’s a stark difference between selfishness and self-love.

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I have absolutely no regrets walking this path, because it feels right. Even if, at the moment, I have no idea where it will take me.

What I do know though is that I have to keep facing my true north and everything else will fall into place as it should when it should.

Not too shabby for my first Saturn return, eh? And she ain’t even over yet.

For anyone else out there doing their best to live life according to their own rules and pave their own path, relentlessly listening to their soul’s calling and marching to the beat of their own drum, you’re not alone.

Let’s do this together, shall we? It’s never too early or too late. We gotta start somewhere and no matter what society or our mind wants us to believe, we are where we’re truly meant to be.

To everyone who knows me personally, you’re welcome for this general life update.

And finally, to those who just randomly found my blog and this post, welcome to the fuckery and beauty that is Bella Dyosa. Where you’ll find everything from travel and food to spirituality and self-love, and all else in between.

May you be seen, heard, and felt in this particular realm on earth. Cause it ain’t just a corner of the world, it’s an expanse where you’re encouraged to take up space in the most glorious way possible. 😉✨